Between Maps and Meaning

For God is not a God of disorder but of peace as in all the congregations of the Lord’s people.
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭14‬:‭33‬

I’m so confused in every way. Yet so sure. It’s so funny I’m lost completely in almost every aspect of my life. I only know that Jesus loves me. I only know that he saves me. I can’t even really fathom what’s happening or why outside of that reality. I’m thankful because I have friends and family I love. I have my pets and that might seem weird to some but I love them dearly. I often think about life without them as some of them age. I don’t know… I’ll be a mess. Missing them though, what a privilege. It’s been such a privilege to be their father. To be their provider. They are only animals yes, but I’ll always love them. And I’ll mourn them. But in a beautiful way!

I thank God for the things he’s given me to love. And even when those things go, gosh I’m so happy to have loved them. My God is great. I’m sorry for falling short. I don’t deserve your mercy, and I don’t deserve your love. Help me father, help me to be what you’ve called me to be. Alone I cannot. I beg the Spirit to lead me. Overtake me. In Jesus name, Amen

To my readers I continue to pray for you, as I hope you pray for me. I’m thankful as I never expected to have views. I don’t promote this, but the fact it continues to find eyes makes me happy. More to come, and hopefully the next posting is more interesting than this.